Time to bungee!

Just like how the tabs are refreshed on our computer, an early morning drive around the city with my favourite diabetic drink made the trick! Oh yes, I am a big fan of ice cream/desserts!
Nothing can fix you like an ice cream they say!

Penning down my thoughts yesterday was really quite therapeutic. Complemented with a good music mix, cleaning up my room and re-organizing everything. Agreed that the countdown is ongoing and time is running out, this positive shift is very much exciting! Gotten my to do list written out.
The environment is rather stagnant and issues to deal with are still present, but I finally am able to internalize them a lot better and respond in a constructive perspective.

27 days left. Workload all piled up.
Keep believing and keep flying high.
Time to bounce back and bounce back hard!

Life is beautiful.<3 p="">

Urge.

Overlooked the existence of this blog, glad I was able to recall the log in details.

The past few months have been much of a roller coaster ride. Albeit exams are over and the undergraduate years are done, the storm is probably getting worst. 

It has been very difficult for me personally to be able to contain my expressions and look for alternatives to utter these inquisitive thoughts, disagreements and emotions. The end of undergraduate school also meant the end of keeping yourself busy, diverting the negative energy into prolific circumstances that you could cherish and is of continuity rather than one of occurrences. 

I miss those days where I barely had 4 hours of sleep and used to be preoccupied, had a long task list and was probably at my most productive phase of life. I was happy despite all the stress. I was able to find a channel to use my qualities, learn and grow at my own pace, plan my own day according to my daily goals and literally design my own life. That freedom is something that I cherish. The lack of personal space and outlet to do what I really want to do without being dependent is sucking this soul. 

I have left debates, another alternative that was very much beautiful, gave me self satisfaction though I probably weren't the most sociable/happy/outgoing human being. But I was happy with my own crowd and friend choices I made. 

I have been wanting to write for so long as I knew it would therapeutic as how it is now. Been trying to express via other platforms but the unstoppable societal perception and judgement though is relatively controllable via friend choices you make is there, but is never truly something one can escape from. 28 days left and the stress is immense. With so many other issues to handle and instabilities to deal with although I have clearly expressed my intentions, being in the environment too is a challenge, one that I need to overcome really quick as time is against me. 

Taking this moment with solidarity, trying to remain composed. 

Hoping that by satisfying this urge to write may keep the soul in peace. 

Phase 2

All this while I was feeling excited and happy to start work, but not anymore. sigh.. Its actually more boring than studying, doing homework and exams. Well, at least at those times, got some thrill and so much fun!! Everyone in class including the lecturers are so friendly and kind. Most importantly, they are WILLING TO TEACH no matter how dumb and blur one is. Now I am beginning to appreciate all those times more than ever! Looks like in working life, most people are being more oppurtunistic and they always want to 'kipas' their boss to show that they are the best or whatever la..

Anyways, if you're wondering what has phase 2 has to do with the post, phase 2 is the 2nd phase in my life ( work life ). Its true when people say, "once you start working, only then you'll know what life's like". Right now, I'm working in a clinic. The doctor is alright, but his writing is like OMG! I've been working for 4 days now and its still hard to understand, except for some common ones. There are 3 senior nurses there. 1 is an auntie named Azizah, very nice lady and most helpful, willing to share all her knowledge and I love to work with her :D but she goes back early :( Next is another kakak (sorry, i forgot her name! lol) who works in the night shift, comes in at 3pm. And lastly the 1 lady (aint gonna mention her name). she's pretty unpredictable coz she's the most senior here. She acts as if she's the doctor, pretty annoying, only helpful if i keep going around her asking for whatever doctor wrote on the card etc. But she's very close to all the doctors and I guess she wants to show that she has the veto power. All I know is, I'm gonna learn as much as possible, nudge her if I have to and go do my degree =) The doctor gives me homeworks to learn about diseases, medicines etc. And now, its getting late, I'm going to bed. need to be early tomorrow :D nyt nyt!

h.O.L.i.D.a.Y.S!

And here I am, sitting in front of my lappie when I'm supposed to be at Genting with my beloved blue intake. What can I do? sigh.. Anyways, self-pitying aint gonna help, all I could do is sit back and relax.

OFFICIALLY DONE WITH A-LEVELS!! yipeee! super duper happy =) at least I dont have to think about exams for the time being. Well, what can I say, I was starving for holidays this year. College was cruel to a certain extend ( lol so bombastic! ) haha.. Imagine having raya break as the only so called holidays ( 1 week only ) and now I'm free! wee~

Right after exams, my first venue was One Utama! had lunch at Subway and then to watch Harry Potter. The movie was.. not bad lah.. (average malaysian answer lol) But seriously, I thought it could have been better. Maybe I was expecting too much. lol. But it wasn't boring. So I would rate 3/5 :) Thought of watching Megamind next.. waiting for my peeps to come back from genting, then to say a proper gooodbye with a movie!

My next pit stop would be TO WORK! money money :) lol. I need experience before doing MBBS so if anyone knows any doctor etc, do inform me! thanks :) Hope I could update my blog more regularly. And sorry, no pics to update.

Signing off,
Reena

priceless :)

Yeayyyy! AS over!! But no holidays :( So much for a celebration right? lol. Had classes from 8am on monday and still have the lack of sleep symptom which means im high and blur. lol. I've got loads of physics homework to do but i keep procastinating. Haha, Mr.Loo (physics lecturer) said that we need to gain momemtum by friday to reach uniform velocity, then constant acceleration. Its somehow cool to apply science terms in daily routine.

EXAM FEVER!

Well, Im gonna have my trials in 2 days!! ARGHHH! and AS in 3 more weeks!

Wish me luck peeps! I must kill it in one shot! Gambateh! like what kaka how said, u ain't wanna repeat AS right? and we need to prove to Mr.George that we ARE NOT GOING to repeat our AS!

SO, WORK WORK WORK!

p/s: all the best to all my classmates too :)

random

Im eating and sleeping too much.. not good! if Kelly is fat and short then what am I? my god..

Dato CQ TEO High School Debate Championship :)

Hello people! Woot Woot!

KDU College organised our 7th Dato' CQ TEO Debate from the 12th of March till 14th of March 2010. And OF COURSE, KDUDA was the ones who were into it.

Firstly, thanks a million to all for making this tournament a really successful one, especially the tabbers! You guys are AWESOME! lol. thanks for giving me the opportunity to be part of the committee and on top of that, appointing me as one of the Deputy Chief Adjudicator! Seriously, I've learnt alot plus, I have more confidence in adjudicating and giving out oral feedback. And also, thanks alot to our tournament advisor! Miss Tasneem =) you rock!

Next, I thank all schools for joining and adding more into our tournament as your presence made it merrier :) Congrats to all of you who advanced to the next rounds and to those of you who didnt, im sure i'll be seeing more of you next year. So, all the best and don't give up! I am really suprised to see how the students nowadays have advanced because they are able to debate on really tough world politics and economics motions. This shows and proves that high school students are competitive and attentive about the current issues. Its proud to see teens nowadays are getting more and more intellectual :)

Alright, in the grand finale, we had SMK King George V as government and SMK Sri Permata as oppositon and the motion debated was THBT religious sites are legitimate military targets in times of war. Its was quite entertaining and interesting to see how tsubs and arvind aka shrimp teasing one and another on stage! lol anyways, it was a 8 to 1 split and opp won! Congrats to Sri Permata :) You guys did a good job! And Congrats to Tsubasa for being awarded as the best speaker for the finals, something he deserves.

Tsubasa and I

Tasneem and I

Kelvin manuel, the 3rd speaker of permata

KDUDA vain people!

Naga and I

Tsubs, Siron, Tasneem and Miss Hannah :)

Adrian and I

p/s : Kathleen! we forgot to take picture together!!! sob sob..

finally..

Hey peeps! its been ages since i posted something. Since today was considerably fun, let me share it with you guys =)

Well, I created history today! lol I woke up late, 8am which is really late because traffic nowadays is unexpectable so no matter what, I gotta leave 30 mins earlier to college. classes started at 9am today. Despite the fact of being late, I managed to take my shower and wash my hair, applied serum and another saloon tingy and i was ready by 8.25 am! isn't it a miracle?? lol!

By 8.30am, I was already on LDP. Suprisingly, traffic wasn't that bad and i reached college 15 minutes earlier. yes, 15 MINUTES! hahahaha! unbelievable? believe it people! lol

Then, had Maths class as usual followed by Stats and Bio and Physics later.. Matthew performed today =) I knew him through KDUDA and i guess we're good friends now. He's really awesome and is a SUPERB Mass Comm freak! lol =) he's like the Malaysian version of Jason Mraz. Oh, actually he and his colleagues organised a valentine's celebration tingy (10th & 11th Feb) and its pretty fun. Highlight of the day was Neville's performance ( another friend via KDUDA ). Seriously, I was shocked. He can really sing la.. I thank Dipti for dragging me to the square to get drinks coz if not, I would have missed it :)

Dear Matthew, extremely sorry for not buying flowers okay.. Im really broke la. Nigel, Santhana and Naga bought roses. Santhana is giving it to her mum, Naga gave it to Ranjani, but NIGEL gave it to SOMEONE and he's not telling us who it is! I guess NIGEL IS IN LOVE! lol. He's really bad la..

After a few weeks, finally today I attended debate training. I was chairing and trust me, it was really hard to decide because everything was hanging all over the place and was a lil messy. It was on US sending more troops to Afghan. Its quite generic but hard at the same time. I guess i have to boost up my confidence coz I'm always scared to give oral adj.. Never mind, I'll learn and improve! lol. I really miss debating so much.. I want to go for MDO but Im sure i cant coz its at Malacca and if I do go, i'll be wasting to weekends of studying. So yea, have to sacrifice debating
:(

Guess i'll stop here for now. Need to get back to work! See you =)

shop till u drop!

Hey peeps!

2010 has brought me many pleasant memories so far. Had one of the best countdown party with family and headed to Kuala Selangor the next day. We had a mini BBQ party which ended up to be not so mini. lol. and my beloved uncles bought fireworks!! awesome night we had.. The best part of Kuala Selangor is of course Kampung Kuantan which is a paradise of fireflies =) I would never forget this trip and I miss all of them so much, chaotic and fun people! haha.

I never regret waking up early and following my mum to her office near Masjid Jamek. At first, i was so pissed because I had to wake up at 6am and wear formal clothes. But then, its been awhile since I met the people there, so i managed to coax myself. After doing whatever she was supposed to do, my mum decided to head to a boutique in Jalan Kuching, suprisingly.

I was so shocked because she didn't mention anything to me about this. My shopaholic senses were activated! hahaha! Seriously, everything was so nice and the price was so reasonable. Both my mum and I had a hard time choosing our clothes as everything was so niceeeee... hehe. Im in love with a dress I saw and its only rm 100 but my mum gave me a BIG no because its short as in above my knees... sob sob..

At last, I bought FOUR blouses and one pants! lols and it was soooo cheap, only rm 180!! My mum can really negotiate la! She bought two blouses. I really love my blouses becuase I dont have anything like it and I always wanted them. I'll make sure i upload the pictures later! My dream came true =) Thank god I woke up in the morning. haha.

Hello 2010!

2009 had many impacts to my life. Positively and negatively of course.

2009 showed me the true colours of Malaysia which made me evolve and now understand what it takes to be successful. Education is almost everything, but its NOT everything.

2009 made me wake up and grow tougher, teaching me important lessons, somethings i would never ever forget, painful things especially adding more to my stubbornness of giving up.

2009 made me work, learn the life of almost an accountant and how I should manage my time so that things could be done before the eleventh hour.

2009 gave me hope, passion and created a platform for me to begin with, something which i could hold on to and showed me battles that need to be fought through.

2009 reminded me, the real aim of me being alive, the real people that I need, the real people that would help and not to give up no matter how bad the bruise is.

2009 introduced KDU to me, the turning point in my life, almost my second home, adding memories that I would never forget, and friends that would really stick with me through thick or thin.

2009 added KDUDA in me, giving me a new family, to share all the laughters and cries, to learn and discover, paths that I had never chosen, and being the major factor of evolvement in me.

2009 had killed me to a certain extend, knocked my head, triggered my mind, adding more stories in this book of journey. Lets see what would 2010 be...

SDO 2009

The following weekend after GSD, KDUDA headed to SINGAPORE =) and indeed Im very lucky to join them again. Match ups were Julius and Siron and Kathleen and I. Ranjani and Maxx were adjudicators. Results:

Siron and Julius broke, Kathleen and I didnt. Maxx broke into semis.

Thanks to Siron, we had our accomodation settled. His family members are really nice people and they helped us alot. Singapore is a VERY neat country in comparison to Malaysia. Hopefully our country too would develop to that level soon. Its just nice to see the buses and cars giving way for us to cross at the zebra crossings. Of course you can never get that in Malaysia, YET. lol.

Since most of us were on a tight budget, we tried to suppress our desires to shop. haha. Friday morning, we decided to go to the zoo. Really awesome! most of the animals were not in cages and they even had penguins! I really enjoyed taking pictures =)

After dinner, we took a bus to orchard road. Really beautiful decorations along the road with huge christmas trees.

Saturday morning, the game started. First round, both kdu teams were in the same room. Siron and Julius won, we got 2nd. The other 3 rounds were really messed up for kath and I. As a whole, things were really dissapointing. Obviously I gotta work ALOT more! My worst tournament ever. Haih.. Seriously.. i disagreed with the results of the fourth and second round. But yea, there is so much more to polish. In finals were Tasneem, Kandahar, Ashok and also another team ( forgot dy). Ashok and Satya won.

GSDC 2009

Hello people! I'm back =)

Okay, I have to admit that I dont have much time. Well, Great Serdang Debate was held on the 4th till 7th of Dec. I can still remember us taking lots of picture on friday since it was our last day for that semester. I had to sacrifice the Broga Outing Camp for pre-university students so that i could go for gsd. But, at the end of the day, i gained alot of experience and had fun =)

Moving on.. At first, I did not know who my debating partner was since Miss Sathya did not allow Kath to debate. Then, i recieved a text from Naga. and... I was to debate with him! fuhh.. I was really scared and nervous. My hands were shaking. Well, this is his first tournament and I was scared if I would pull him down or affect his performance as I wasnt too confident of myself on guiding him. And, i've never team up with him.

Luckily we managed to have 3 rounds of training before friday. although it wasnt enough, somehow it helped me to understand his style of debating so that i could adjust and go with the flow. Friday (4th) was awesome! Mr george was late to class and we had quite a good time bonding with the rest and taking pictures. thank god Mr.George didnt leave us too late, so I had enough time to go home and pack my stuff. We left kdu at 2pm.

I had lots of fun working with Naga. It was totally different because somehow it wasnt stressful and Naga has so much matter =) He's a good debator and he really improved throughout the day. I learned how to adapt and I still gotta improve my analysis. I enjoyed the fourth prelim where we met maxx and ran and we had sharmila as our adju! i was really nervous and i didnt do a good job. Credits to Naga for pulling us up to 2nd place! We were not as good as maxx and ranjani or julius and siron, but we were good enough to break! Congrats to Naga for breaking in his first tournament :) owh yea i forgot one more thing, he used Trishul as his debating name.. (he said its luckier). Hope he didnt have a hard time guiding me as well.

In a nutshell, there is so much more for me to improve especially ANALYSIS!! I thank Naga for adding more memories into my debating journey and yea i am looking forward to debate with you again :)

B.a.N.G.K.o.k!

Hey guys! Sorry for not updating , was a lil busy.

Well, 1 word to describe Bangkok, AWESOME!

King's Palace. Got more pictures, but i rather upload all in fb :)

Me!

The room keeper's creative creation! damn cute la.

Maxx, Me, Miss Hannah, Miss Sathya, Kathleen and Margaret :)

Maxx and Kathleen, real shoppers! They shopped like crazy and kathleen even bought an extra hand luggage. Ahaha~

segregation

Hey guys.

Had Bio practical today and it was awesome! usually its quite stressful, but not today. Even though my results got 'cacat' a bit, but its okay because it doesn't affect much. Mr Jaya separated me and Kelly today. So sad ;( We are supposed to do our practicals together.. But! I'll make sure we'll do it together for the next practical :) haha.

Anyways, its just so sad to see how we in Malaysia, segregate ourselves. Come on la people, even after 50 years of independence! PATHETIC. Talking about what Mr. Jaya said in class, now we've got a new tip. If anyone tries to bully you in college or varsity, just answer everything and wait till he asks you "where are you from". Then make sure you tell them that you are from somewhere nearby and they WON'T bully you! haha cool!

I got a new source of inspiration. Its THE cutest thing on planet earth.. JEAN! lol. Yup! Jean is my inspiration! She rocks la! haha but today she was kinda tired. Hope she's okay.

Indra dearest, hope everything is okay. And as for my problems, I'll just let time to heal it. As for debating, I'll be having a mini tournament on Saturday, so hope everything will go smoothly.

Btw, my influenza is slightly better now. I gotta protect myself from sore throat now. Lol.

I have many pics to upload, but lazy la. I promise I'll upload soon =)

Influenza

Okay my antibodies or whatever reduced today. Im having an almost terrible flu :( i hate flu! plus headache and sneezing makes it worse. My brains were frozen during debate training.

But it was kinds funny because the flu thing was on and off. Before debate, it got worse. During debate it was better. Now, it's TERRIBLE! Im having a pack of tissue next to me lol. I was supposed to post something about Indra but i forgot ^^''.

Now, i can't wait to finish my Physics work and snooze! It's been a week since i slept well. Especially without air conditioner. Haha it is true people! Air cond is a major factor which contributes to a sound sleep. So, hopefully i can finish my work soon.

Waaaa.. next week, around this time I should be in the aeroplane or maybe arrived in Bangkok! Excited! which also reminds me the fact that I've got a lot to work on.

Anyways.. I can just feel it. Something is wrong with me.. Physically and mentally retarded i suppose. Just need to SLEEP!

3 things proven in one day!

Haha today I went to meet my hair stylist. As usual, i kena marah nicely for not taking good care of my hair. Well, its proven that I'm a lazy person. Now, she banned me from using conditioner. So, hopefully my hair will get better. *crossing fingers*

Then, one of her assistant asked me how old am I. And I proudly told her I'm eighteen. Then, she replied: So tall! hahahahahaha damn funny. She's the first person who told me that I'm tall. Therefore, its proven that I'm not that short after all xD

Then, when she was "repairing" my hair, she told me that I've gained weight.. (aiyo!! so sad..) So now, its proven that I'm fat! :( i guess its because I'm eating McD almost every weekend. Lol. So, I'm gonna be on a healthy diet from today. Its been weeks since I played badminton. Need to exercise more!

dilemma

Haih... So sad la. I screwed debate practice :( and i came back early. So sad.. what is wrong with me? i can't even adjudicate properly as in I don't know how to give good personal feedbacks. Why am I so pathetic. Some people must be fed up with me already. I am always like a minus point in the group. NEED to WORK, WORK and WORK before Bangkok. Must break! Gambateh!

Right now, I am not sure whether should I go for debate trainings or to sports carnival on the 14th. I want to go for both actually!! btw, yellow house is LEADING now!!! History! haha. What should i do??

AIDS!

Today was good :) I didnt screw my presentation! thank god! and the others were so good.. only one or two questions for Q&A seesion. Haah! relieved! A BIG BIG thanks to Roxanne, Vnoo and Aiman!

Random snap shots:

Kathleen during lunch break

Indra! looks like gangster lah..

Mr.Jaya and roxanne :)

Roxanne was superb! trust me.. She can be a very good biology teacher when it comes about things like AIDS and stuff. haha!

I thought of uploading the videos of our presentation but i just don't know how to do it ^^". duh!

Neways, i still have more things to complete.. Bio test is next tues and physics test on weds! like wthla.. :( seriously need to gambateh!

work work work!

Fuh! been quite busy with so many things. Imagine, I have pure maths test and my debate position paper to be presented on wednesday. Then, AIDS presentation on Thursday. Next Tuesday is Biology test! OMG! My head gonna explode dy :(

But, like what we all know, no pain; no gain! Bangkok is coming soon. I am happy, but thinking about all the motions and stress, there is alot more for me to prepare especially MATTER! my matter SUCKS! Manner also damn low ya. :( haih! Need to work more!

Today was kinda average. We had a so called race during maths class. Most of us didnt bring our textbooks and Ms Angeline gave us quite alot oh homework. Me, Jean, Kath and Santhana ran to the library to look for more books unfortunately there was only one left. So we decided to take it.

Then, i saw indra, nigel and angie rushing to complete the work, so no way im gonna give up. I sat at my place and started to dot it asap! then i was the fastest till the 2nd last question where i did some stupid mistake which made me lost the 1st place :( as usual, nigel won and i got 2nd! still, im consider fast coz i started late :) hehe. (pujuk-ing myslef) haih, today got nice pictures =)

Attention! She is available! For Interview, please call 016-xxxxxxx :) (jean! im helping u to promote! Just like what we discussed :) lol!)

After completing Maths work! which one is nicer? must answer! :)

poor indra! caught in action! (trying very hard to sleep :) )

master zhuo li !

And now, back to work! bye~