Urge.

Overlooked the existence of this blog, glad I was able to recall the log in details.

The past few months have been much of a roller coaster ride. Albeit exams are over and the undergraduate years are done, the storm is probably getting worst. 

It has been very difficult for me personally to be able to contain my expressions and look for alternatives to utter these inquisitive thoughts, disagreements and emotions. The end of undergraduate school also meant the end of keeping yourself busy, diverting the negative energy into prolific circumstances that you could cherish and is of continuity rather than one of occurrences. 

I miss those days where I barely had 4 hours of sleep and used to be preoccupied, had a long task list and was probably at my most productive phase of life. I was happy despite all the stress. I was able to find a channel to use my qualities, learn and grow at my own pace, plan my own day according to my daily goals and literally design my own life. That freedom is something that I cherish. The lack of personal space and outlet to do what I really want to do without being dependent is sucking this soul. 

I have left debates, another alternative that was very much beautiful, gave me self satisfaction though I probably weren't the most sociable/happy/outgoing human being. But I was happy with my own crowd and friend choices I made. 

I have been wanting to write for so long as I knew it would therapeutic as how it is now. Been trying to express via other platforms but the unstoppable societal perception and judgement though is relatively controllable via friend choices you make is there, but is never truly something one can escape from. 28 days left and the stress is immense. With so many other issues to handle and instabilities to deal with although I have clearly expressed my intentions, being in the environment too is a challenge, one that I need to overcome really quick as time is against me. 

Taking this moment with solidarity, trying to remain composed. 

Hoping that by satisfying this urge to write may keep the soul in peace. 

Phase 2

All this while I was feeling excited and happy to start work, but not anymore. sigh.. Its actually more boring than studying, doing homework and exams. Well, at least at those times, got some thrill and so much fun!! Everyone in class including the lecturers are so friendly and kind. Most importantly, they are WILLING TO TEACH no matter how dumb and blur one is. Now I am beginning to appreciate all those times more than ever! Looks like in working life, most people are being more oppurtunistic and they always want to 'kipas' their boss to show that they are the best or whatever la..

Anyways, if you're wondering what has phase 2 has to do with the post, phase 2 is the 2nd phase in my life ( work life ). Its true when people say, "once you start working, only then you'll know what life's like". Right now, I'm working in a clinic. The doctor is alright, but his writing is like OMG! I've been working for 4 days now and its still hard to understand, except for some common ones. There are 3 senior nurses there. 1 is an auntie named Azizah, very nice lady and most helpful, willing to share all her knowledge and I love to work with her :D but she goes back early :( Next is another kakak (sorry, i forgot her name! lol) who works in the night shift, comes in at 3pm. And lastly the 1 lady (aint gonna mention her name). she's pretty unpredictable coz she's the most senior here. She acts as if she's the doctor, pretty annoying, only helpful if i keep going around her asking for whatever doctor wrote on the card etc. But she's very close to all the doctors and I guess she wants to show that she has the veto power. All I know is, I'm gonna learn as much as possible, nudge her if I have to and go do my degree =) The doctor gives me homeworks to learn about diseases, medicines etc. And now, its getting late, I'm going to bed. need to be early tomorrow :D nyt nyt!

h.O.L.i.D.a.Y.S!

And here I am, sitting in front of my lappie when I'm supposed to be at Genting with my beloved blue intake. What can I do? sigh.. Anyways, self-pitying aint gonna help, all I could do is sit back and relax.

OFFICIALLY DONE WITH A-LEVELS!! yipeee! super duper happy =) at least I dont have to think about exams for the time being. Well, what can I say, I was starving for holidays this year. College was cruel to a certain extend ( lol so bombastic! ) haha.. Imagine having raya break as the only so called holidays ( 1 week only ) and now I'm free! wee~

Right after exams, my first venue was One Utama! had lunch at Subway and then to watch Harry Potter. The movie was.. not bad lah.. (average malaysian answer lol) But seriously, I thought it could have been better. Maybe I was expecting too much. lol. But it wasn't boring. So I would rate 3/5 :) Thought of watching Megamind next.. waiting for my peeps to come back from genting, then to say a proper gooodbye with a movie!

My next pit stop would be TO WORK! money money :) lol. I need experience before doing MBBS so if anyone knows any doctor etc, do inform me! thanks :) Hope I could update my blog more regularly. And sorry, no pics to update.

Signing off,
Reena

priceless :)

Yeayyyy! AS over!! But no holidays :( So much for a celebration right? lol. Had classes from 8am on monday and still have the lack of sleep symptom which means im high and blur. lol. I've got loads of physics homework to do but i keep procastinating. Haha, Mr.Loo (physics lecturer) said that we need to gain momemtum by friday to reach uniform velocity, then constant acceleration. Its somehow cool to apply science terms in daily routine.

EXAM FEVER!

Well, Im gonna have my trials in 2 days!! ARGHHH! and AS in 3 more weeks!

Wish me luck peeps! I must kill it in one shot! Gambateh! like what kaka how said, u ain't wanna repeat AS right? and we need to prove to Mr.George that we ARE NOT GOING to repeat our AS!

SO, WORK WORK WORK!

p/s: all the best to all my classmates too :)

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Im eating and sleeping too much.. not good! if Kelly is fat and short then what am I? my god..

Dato CQ TEO High School Debate Championship :)

Hello people! Woot Woot!

KDU College organised our 7th Dato' CQ TEO Debate from the 12th of March till 14th of March 2010. And OF COURSE, KDUDA was the ones who were into it.

Firstly, thanks a million to all for making this tournament a really successful one, especially the tabbers! You guys are AWESOME! lol. thanks for giving me the opportunity to be part of the committee and on top of that, appointing me as one of the Deputy Chief Adjudicator! Seriously, I've learnt alot plus, I have more confidence in adjudicating and giving out oral feedback. And also, thanks alot to our tournament advisor! Miss Tasneem =) you rock!

Next, I thank all schools for joining and adding more into our tournament as your presence made it merrier :) Congrats to all of you who advanced to the next rounds and to those of you who didnt, im sure i'll be seeing more of you next year. So, all the best and don't give up! I am really suprised to see how the students nowadays have advanced because they are able to debate on really tough world politics and economics motions. This shows and proves that high school students are competitive and attentive about the current issues. Its proud to see teens nowadays are getting more and more intellectual :)

Alright, in the grand finale, we had SMK King George V as government and SMK Sri Permata as oppositon and the motion debated was THBT religious sites are legitimate military targets in times of war. Its was quite entertaining and interesting to see how tsubs and arvind aka shrimp teasing one and another on stage! lol anyways, it was a 8 to 1 split and opp won! Congrats to Sri Permata :) You guys did a good job! And Congrats to Tsubasa for being awarded as the best speaker for the finals, something he deserves.

Tsubasa and I

Tasneem and I

Kelvin manuel, the 3rd speaker of permata

KDUDA vain people!

Naga and I

Tsubs, Siron, Tasneem and Miss Hannah :)

Adrian and I

p/s : Kathleen! we forgot to take picture together!!! sob sob..